Just gouge it out already...
Journal Entry: Tue Apr 8, 2008, 9:46 AM
- Mood:
Suffering - Watching: Crossing Jordan
- Drinking: Aloha Maid Apple Iced Tea
For anyone who's seen my most recent deviation you know what I mean, for those of you who have not I'll explain.
This has been a craptastic week...and it's only Tuesday. As of later my physical health seems to be in the toilet. My sleep pattern is completely off, my allergies have gone haywire, I've been kinda nauseous and dizzy for the last few hours, I have a splitting headache behind my right eye, oh...and I have a stye in that eye too. What's a stye? It's a little infected nodule that develops on top of, near the lashes or under the eyelid, and they HURT LIKE A BITCH.
I went to the doctor today cause my upper eyelid was really tender to the touch, and a pretty badly swollen. She jabbed me in the eye with her finger at least 3 times in my right, and twice in my left before telling me it was a stye. She wasn't exactly GENTLE about it either. Yeah, it's absolutely FANTASTIC to have someone jab their finger in your eye when it's already in excruciating PAIN. I never really liked our family doctor but meh, at least I know what it is. -_-
i suppose I deserve it for it's my own fault. They say it can be caused my improper removal of eye-makeup , which i wear all the time and occasionally..err..forget to take off, and/or fall asleep in on occasion. i don't do it on purpose but yeah. Cause of what was probably make-up build up in the oil glands of my eyelid I now have a nasty little bump under my right eyelid that not only makes me look I got punched in the face, HARD, but also itches like crazy and makes it hurt to even BLINK.
Yeah is wonderful when it itches and hurts at the same time, it's either leave the itch unscratched which I can't do without going nuts, or scratch it and grit your teeth to try and keep from yelling out in pain. It's so fuckin irritating i just wanna gouge my eye out already...which to be honest would make no sense since the problem is the lid not the eye...and It'd just add to the pain...but it's THAT annoying...
Sneezing is HORRENDOUS. You know the feeling of pressure you get behind your eyes when you sneeze? Yes that irritates styes apparently. It's just absolutely FABULOUS that my allergies decide to pay me a nice visit they day I get this stupid thing. So I can't stop sneezing. Even more fabulous is how awful my face looks cause of the swelling around my eye, I look RETARDED. I decided today I'm 100% GOING out today to go pick up a package of disposable eye-patches to wear when I go out or to classes till this ugly thing is gone. better to have people stare at me thinking "Wonder what happened to her eye..." then have them staring at me grossed out thinking "Ew what a gross eye!" I generally don't care what I look like but this is just ridiculous looking....
Because of this I can't really focus on art so don't expect anything mind blowing till I'm feeling better, if i submit anything it will probably just be crappy doodles...
Yeah....
I think, as much as I love it...I'm never going to wear eye makeup again due to how AWFUL one of the negative consequences of that crap is. These things supposedly go away on their own, but if my stye is persistent I guess, it will have to be surgically removed....and they don't knock you out for this shit, they just numb your eyelid, so you're awake while they cut your lid open...uhhh...EWWWWW. I'm doing all I can to hasten this thing...make it vanish damnit....
OH MAGICAL EYE FAIRY IF YOU EXIST HEAL ME PLEASE.
T___T